HELLO EVERYONE (:
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
It just struck me, striking me real hard.
I find it hard to control my emotions anymore.
the past 2 days had been very emotional.
I just couldn't express myself to you.
I dun feel love anyway from you.
guess I am just too naive.
great online chat with my good buddy.
open up so much like nv b4.
all i can is sorry to my buddy, i dunno i hurt you so much.
i feel the pain too.
you wouldn't remain this way if my reaction wasn't like that 10 months ago.
i treasure friendship a lot, that was why i made a shock reaction.
reason being, to avoid.
i felt more close to you that time.
i was in 2 minds.
read her past entries in her private blog.
i guess i am on the verge of breaking down again.
i am feeling so fucked up now.
i can feel the love you have for him in the past but i couldn'y feel mine.
i seriously felt i dun meant much to you.
to the extent that if i leave you, u wouldn't feel the pain.
was really sad when u questioned me if i really love you last night.
up till now, u still doubt me.
up till now, u still dun believe me.
maybe to you i nv really did many significant things for you.
but i know i did a lot, a lot more than what i usually do.
for all the things i did for you, i nv expect any return from you.
i want you to feel happy, feel pampered, feel that you could rely on me.
did i managed to do all those things above? i dunno.
i have always remain the same.
i love you.
i cannot let out my frustrations in front of you.
you will get angry, complaining about my attitude.
i dun even want to tell you my problems.
i dun know if you care to listen.
we always argue for the stupid things.
you always criticise my views.
i cannot open up.
everytime you mention breakups, i lost the world.
i couldn't control anymore.
i need a break.
i m just so hurt you didn't feel my love.
guang revealed @ 10:32 AM